Without pride, I’d say that I’m not a bad worship leader, not bad at all. I led this past Sunday. I got big thank-yous from the guy who preached (who heads up worship at our church) and from a worship leader from Canada. Musically, we rocked.
But I was frustrated. Lately, I’ve been restless during our worship services. It is easy to say that when you’re sitting on your butt listening to someone else talk. (Bear in mind that we have an excellent pastor, with great messages that emphasize the call to learn humility.) But to be bored when I’m the worship leader is a new experience, because I’m very passionate about touching the heart of God!
And I thought I was done with my transition from being a good conservative evangelical Christian to an emerging post-modern freakazoid. Evidently not. And if I, an “immigrant” in the new land, feel bored, how much more would a “native” leave thinking, “That did absolutely nothing for me”?
It sure feels like God is doing something, leading me to… what?