November 5, 2003

[stressed]…and mildly depressed. I guess my idea of being laid off was, “Hey, I can spend a week just relaxing. Then I’ll spend a week dejunking the house. Then I will be rested and ready to look for a new job.” I have accomplished none of those things.

In Meyers-Briggs land, I am a J, while Kay is a P. She thrives in chaos, while I thrive in order. And the days are chaotic around here, especially with workers tromping through the house working on our bathrooms. My home is not relaxing. Which means I haven’t made headway in goal #1. And being a linear person, that greatly reduces my motivations for goals #2 (dejunk) and #3 (get a job).

I guess this is life. I am glad to see Kay so happy. And the children have been so happy lately, they make me feel jealous on behalf of other families. These things keep me from sinking too low for too long. But in general, I’m feeling down lately. I also have to remind myself that it’s natural to experience emotional ups & downs when you’re laid off.

But I may have to get a job just so I can escape to a nice, quiet place.

Jon Reid

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As an American missionary kid who grew up in Japan, I'm a child of two cultures, while not fully belonging to either. This gives me a sightly different view of the world.

12 responses to Stressed…

  1. I have a job where I can work at home two days a week, and on those days (like today), I take my computer and leave the house and go to a friend’s office where I can drink bad coffee and get wifi internet access. i never unlocked the code of how to be at home during the week.

  2. I was going to say that exact thing, that there are naturally going to up and downs when you are layed off. That has got to be one of THE top 5 most stressful conditions in life. So my advice is allow yourself to go through the ups and downs, but allow God to propel you to the next stage of your journey!
    Also, if you home is like mine, it’s not the most peaceful place to begin with. I never try to have “quiet times” with God at home….not at least while the boys are awake! They are amazingly good at siphoning off my energy! Lol!
    Well, hang in there Jon! I’ll keep praying for you!

  3. Hang in there man. You’ll do ok. Start by relaxing. Go to the coffee shop. Go browse Barnes and Nobles. Get out a Clancy novel and read it.

  4. I feel you jon. thanks for sharing your heart. Still praying for you and for the fam.

  5. For two years we volunteered, tent made, went without a pay cheque. Lost a lot of money. Saw a lot of miracles. Lived a lot of grace. Not sure I’d want to repeat it any time soon but not sure I would want to have missed it.
    God grant you peace and clarity and groceries.

  6. Grace to you, my friend!

  7. Tough situation – been there a few times. One thing you could do is “dejunk” by putting everything in the house on eBay … kinda’ like killing two birds with one stone. You’d have an empty house and lots of money although the spousal implications tilt toward the negative 😉 Oh, well just a thought.

  8. you guys sound like my wife V and I….although I’m the P and she is the J….makes for interesting times!
    Hang in there Jon.

  9. Jon,
    I thought of you in reading this today, with prayer for fresh encounter with the heart and mind of Jesus:
    Psalm 46
    1 God is our refuge and strength,
    A very present help in trouble.
    2 Therefore we will not fear,
    Even though the earth be removed,
    And though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea;
    3 Though its waters roar and be troubled,
    Though the mountains shake with its swelling. Selah
    4 There is a river whose streams shall make glad the city of God,
    The holy place of the tabernacle of the Most High.
    5 God is in the midst of her, she shall not be moved;
    God shall help her, just at the break of dawn.
    6 The nations raged, the kingdoms were moved;
    He uttered His voice, the earth melted.
    7 The LORD of hosts is with us;
    The God of Jacob is our refuge. Selah
    8 Come, behold the works of the LORD,
    Who has made desolations in the earth.
    9 He makes wars cease to the end of the earth;
    He breaks the bow and cuts the spear in two;
    He burns the chariot in the fire.
    10 Be still, and know that I am God;
    I will be exalted among the nations,
    I will be exalted in the earth!
    11 The LORD of hosts is with us;
    The God of Jacob is our refuge. Selah

  10. Thanks, everybody. Things are beginning to change in my perspective. And Greg, wow, thanks for the great psalm. It spoke to me.

  11. Nice to meet another ‘J’ – I just spent a week with a houseful of 7 kids so I know how you are feeling. NOw they have gone and I am starting to function again!

  12. If you ever have extra time on your hands, let me know if you can help me create an unofficial album for some songs God gave me. I’m currently looking for musicians with a worshipping heart, and through prayer, one of those that the Lord brought to my mind was YOU. 😀 (I know I’ve mentioned this before, but I couldn’t really “get help” because I knew you were very, very busy)
    P.S. I’m surprised you spelled my name right! I only put “kryx” on my last post (your “church boredom”). It’s nice to know some people consider spelling others’ names carefully. Thanks..