Cornerstone Vineyard has two Sundays left before it closes its doors. Sundays when I lead worship (which used to be every Sunday) take hours in preparation and delivery. I have often wished that I could devote those hours to outward rather than inward ministry.
But now that I come to the end, it is surprisingly hard to let go. This will be the second time I hang up my guitar. Will I get another crack at it someday? Even if I go out to play open mics and such, going solo is not the same as having a band. And I wouldn’t be playing my favorite David Ruis songs, or get to play the new ones I wanted to try.
I also have a growing repertoire of my own worship songs which are going to gather dust now. Sure, I have other non-church songs which can come out of the closet, but still, if I had thought ahead, I would have had the sound engineers record each live run.
Ah well. Things have to die for new things to be born.